I found within myself a dry empty place…a disappointment for someone who loves the richness of preparing while waiting for Christ to come. So I decided to take Christ to others who might find emptiness, dryness, or pain as part of their waiting. I began to seek out those who can’t get out or around, the sick, the grieving, or lonely. Perhaps I could help someone who carries a heavy burden.
I found myself inviting others into my emptiness. For me the waiting turned into watching. There seems to be a difference. Watching implies being attentive, being present to now, being alert to possible helpful action, being present to a person. I would probably be doing some of the same things I usually did in preparing myself for Christ to come. But the focus shifted from myself to others.
It seems to me there is a difference between waiting and watching though they may both happen at the same time. I think of Peter, James, and John on the mountain with Jesus when He was transfigured and Moses and Elijah appeared with Him. The Apostles wanted to do something, maybe build three tents. “Lord, it is good for us to be here.” They were alert, attentive and watchful. When Jesus took them to the garden He asked them to watch with Him. When Jesus came back He found them sleeping. “Could you not watch one hour with me?”
“Lord, it is good for us to be here.” Let us watch while we wait in our longing, our hunger, and our emptiness. Suddenly it will be over, and “there will come to the temple the one you seek.”