All lives have low points, even in the convent. I had a major low point about 10 years into my life as a Sister. I was cleaning the convent steps and thought, “What am I doing here?”
All my idols of God had crashed. It’s hard to explain, but I had suddenly realized that my experiences or insights of God were something I wanted to hang on to, but couldn’t and grow. I felt empty and alone.
I didn’t know it at the time, but I was being called to new growth.
Older and wiser, I now realize that low points always generate new life. God’s always moving us to something deeper during these times. That doesn’t make them easy. But if we can remember it, we can move with God in prayer.
Have you ever felt this way? Could God be calling you to something deeper … even religious life?
what you said above is how i feel
Hi Carolyn, So many of us have felt this way … especially when we were discerning a major step in our lives! Sister Bobbi, our vocation director, is a great listener. She can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org or 309-283-2300. She’s traveling this week, so she may be a bit tough to catch immediately, but she will get back with you. Blessings in your journey.